Transitions

Sunday morning. I sit at my desk, looking out on the back yard.  The bird feeders are filled and soon birds will come to stuff themselves.  Not bright spring birds, dressed in orange, yellow, red and pink courting plumage, but little brown and black birds, preparing for the winter.  Sometimes screaming electric blue Steller Jays swoop down and scare them off for a few minutes.  But they need to eat.  They perch in the big spreading alder, less dense now because the lawn is strewn with fallen leaves. They wait for the marauding jays to have their fill, begin to fight amongst themselves and fly away in a rage.

My Backyard

My Backyard

In the garden I’m struggling against the biological imperative of the flowers to make seed.  I’m losing the battle.  Even if I dead-head every day they slip in a few seed pods.  They begin to take on their sleeping look: brown leaves, withered stalks. 

Life is in transition inside the house as well as out.  Soon the new bathroom will begin to look like a bathroom instead of a construction site.

New Bathroom under Construction

New Bathroom under Construction

When it does we will move our bed downstairs from the loft.  I told Jerry we should sleep upstairs sometimes, just because I like being up in the treetops.  But downstairs is a lot more convenient.

Daughter number 2, Clare, and her husband, Jason, are staying with us.  They are in our rental apartment that is the other half of our house. When I bought this place 10 years ago it was a little duplex in the woods, the only duplex on the island.  Since then we have modernized the back unit where we live and about doubled its size, but the other unit is as it always was.

Clare and Jason are with us while they wait for visas to go to China. There they will teach English to Chinese business people.  Both of them are in divinity school, but are taking a year off.  They have just returned from the Republic of Georgia where they have been working to help people displaced by the conflict with Russia.  Some of their experiences in Georgia can be found on the IRD blog (on my blogroll).

Clare and Jason

Clare and Jason

In 2 weeks we begin drydock.  That’s 3 weeks in September when the car ferry to the island goes to Seattle to be rejuvinated.  There’s a foot ferry, we keep a car on the mainland, and trundle necessities across. It’s best to lay in supplies and bring all the heavy stuff over before drydock begins.

About the time Clare and Jason go off to China daughter number 1 will arrive from England.  Then Jerry and I will set out for Alaska to look after our house. 

Manley House

Manley House

When we’ve done that we plan to travel to New Zealand.  And, by gosh, when that trip ends it’ll just about be Christmas!

Lazy summer days will soon be over.  The season will change.  The sun will move south.  The leaves will fall.
 
The north wind doth blow,
We shall have snow,
And what will the robin do then,
Poor thing?

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Health Care, Aug 20, Time Goes By Challange

Today I spent some time trying to understand why so many people say we in the United States have the best health care in the world.  I looked up some statistics.  First, I checked the adult mortality rate:  your chances of dying between the ages of 15 and 60.  About 25 countries, including Cuba, have us beat on that one.  Then I looked at infant mortality rate.  Same general result.  We are way down the list.  Then deaths from heart disease and cancer.  We are below all the European countries and Canada. 

All the countries that do better than the United States on adult mortality, infant mortality, cance and heart disease have government health care plans. 

Health care reforn without a government option is worse than the status quo.  At least with the present system we have Medicare, a single payer government plan.  That covers those of us over 65.  Without a government option for the rest of our population they will inevitably raid Medicare and Medicaid.

The substitution of the so-called health care cooperative for the government option is simply a slight of hand for the creation of more insurance companies.

I include here part of a post I wrote a few weeks ago about the health care debate that includes an example of how these cooperatives work. It recounts my husband’s experience with Group Health of Puget Sound, a so-called cooperative that has been promoted as an example of how the cooperatives work.

My husband, Jerry, insured his late wife, Susy, with Group Health.  He himself had Medicare, but she was too young.

Group Health is being held up as an example of a model for a “cooperative” health care plan that would be a “compromise” solution to the Republicans’ objection to a government health plan.  There is an article in the New York Times discussing Group Health.  Toward the end of the article it states that “Technically, Group Health was misnamed. . . . . Structured as a not-for-profit corporation, its revenues (2.6 billion last year) are reinvested rather than redistributed among members.  But it is governed like a cooperative – and calls itself one – because its board consists of and is elected by members.”  In fact, according to the article, only seven-tenths of 1 percent of enrollees voted in the last board election.

In fact, Group Health is an insurance company.  Apparently its fees are slightly lower than other insurance companies, supposedly because its records are computerized and its doctors are paid a salary (not fee for service).  Salaries are based on “performance.”  The article does not say who evaluates performance, or what criteria are used in the evaluation.  But I’d be willing to bet my bottom dollar that keeping cost down is a biggie!

At Group Health, according to the Times article, patients are assigned a team of primary care practitioners who are responsible for their health.  Notice that they are assigned practitioners.  What that means is that you don’t choose your own doctor, and you don’t even choose whether or not you see a doctor.  You may see a nurse, and you don’t have a say in which it is. 

Suppose you were a doctor working for Group Health and your salary was based on your performance.  Your performance would be measured by the administrators running the insurance company (Group Health).  These administrators would be very interested in keeping costs down, and probably secondarily, in keeping patients healthy (or perhaps in keeping healthy patients).  You would be disinclined to order tests for patients, especially expensive tests.  You would prefer not to treat the really sick ones.  They would need expensive care and would spoil your record of keeping costs down.

The times article states further: “Medical practices, and insurance coverage decisions, are driven by the company’s own research into which drugs and procedures are most effective.” 

Don’t let them fool you.  It’s an insurance company, pure and simple.

Here’s what happened to Jerry’s wife.  Some years after he took out the insurance she discovered that she had metastasized breast cancer, the same thing Elizabeth Edwards has.  It would eventually kill her, but there were treatments which could significantly prolong her life.  She was given chemotherapy and the cancer went into remission.  The tumors were not gone, but they were no longer growing.  After another year they came back.  Jerry got a letter from Group Health saying they would no longer cover Susy’s cancer.  He read the policy, which had been sold to him by an insurance broker (because Group Health is an insurance company) and it had a lot of language in it that was difficult to understand, but which did seem to indicate that the insurance company could terminate coverage under various conditions.

Is anyone surprised by this story?  Isn’t this standard insurance company practice?  Don’t get really sick because the doctors will get paid less and the insurance company will get less money.

Jerry made a fuss.  The original broker got involved.  (“This is outrageous!” is what he said to Jerry.)  Eventually he got coverage reinstated, and Susy lived another 5 years. 

Jerry and I both have Medicare.  He wouldn’t be paid to have Group Health.  Medicare isn’t perfect, but it is the best health insurance I ever had.  We supplement it with a medigap policy.  That is not cheap, but it allows us to choose our own doctor and to decide when to go.  We can see a specialist when we need to, and the insurance company has nothing to do with the decision.  We decide, with the recommendation of our doctor, which specialists to see.
President Obama said that if we like the insurance we have we can keep it.  I sure hope he keeps that promise, because I really don’t want to be forced into something like Group Health.

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Summer is ending; what’s next?

I come home from trips and fall back into my soft routine. 

It goes like this:  Up in the morning at 6:30 or 7:00.  Let dogs and cat out.  Make bed, quick shower, get dressed.  Jerry has started tea for me and coffee for him.  Make breakfast.  Jerry has toast, and/ or eggs and bacon or sausage.  Sometimes I eat a little of some of that.  Then I go into the garden and look at flowers and my tomatoes.

tomatoes and geraniums

tomatoes and geraniums

Jerry starts building.  Just now he is making us a new bathroom.  Next I get on the computer for a while.  I write, email and read and comment on blogs I like.  During the morning I alternate garden and computer.  I Put out birdseed. 

Lunch is at noon.  Jerry has fruit and a sandwich; I have two small tacos, usually with cheese.  This lunch for me is recent.  In a month or so I will get tired of tacos and move on to something else.  Nap is next and dogs are allowed on the bed at nap time, but they have to stay on my side.   We doze.  At 1:30 or 2:00 we get up and do afternoon chores.  Jerry builds, I do housework or write or garden or draw.

At about 4:30 we get out the wine and turn on the news.  While we sip and listen I begin to make supper.  If the weather is nice we sit out on the patio I built last year and look at the blue sky and the big doug fir and all my flowers. 

patio decor

patio decor

chain saw patio art

chain saw patio art

Jerry notices airplanes that fly over and I notice humming birds.  We point these things out to each other. We discuss the news or what we have read in Science or The Economist or the New York Times.  Sometimes we talk about people – my kids, his son, his brother, friends, former friends. Then we have dinner.  Lately I have tried to cook only as much as we both want to eat with no left-overs.  After dinner I wash dishes, feed  dogs. 

At about 7:30 we take our evening walk.  Sometimes, if the weather is fine, walking is a great pleasure. 

Evening walk

Evening walk

The views are lovely, the llamas are funny, there are deer and rabbits and we sometimes see friends either on foot or in cars for a brief chat.  Dogs bark; we check property for sale on our street.  I notice that the blackberries are about ready to pick.  Sometimes the walk is not pleasant if it rains or is cold and windy.  Then I am glad when it’s over, but we do it faithfully every evening for the exercise.  There’s one steep hill in our walk, and I watch our reactions as we climb the hill.  One or the other of us often gets a bit short of breath. 

Now, after the walk, I am starting a new post, dawdling until bedtime (about 9:30).  At bedtime the dogs go into their crate for the night and I call the cat inside.  Usually she is waiting for me at the patio gate.  I read to Jerry in bed until about 10:00, then lights out and sleep.  At present our book is Coming into the Country  by John McPhee.  It is about Alaska.  We often wake up at around 2 or 3 in the morning and talk for an hour or so. This routine goes on for days and I begin to think it will just keep on keeping on until the end.  Then something happens.

Tonight w e got a phone call from Manley.

Last spring when we were staying in our house in Manley Hot Springs, Alaska I wrote some posts about the people and country of that part of Alaska.  One post in particular caused trouble.  I hurt the feelings of a person I like; I was sad, and sorry I had written it.  I made the mistake of thinking nobody in Manley would read my blog.  While I was in England I received some new and vicious blog comments and I realized that, because of the blog, my future social life in Manley would be limited.

The call we got last night was a friendly one from a neighbor who keeps an eye on our house.  He said there was a rumor that our house was advertised for sale on Craig’s List for a low price, and he asked Jerry whether that was true.  Jerry said, emphatically, not true.  Our friend also reported that a man in a pickup truck had driven up the driveway to our house.  The man said he was “just looking around.”

Jerry’s response and mine to this phone call was the same.  We want to go to Manley this fall to look after our house, and we were cheered to know that we still have a friend there.  I love the trip up there, even though it tires me.  There is always wonderful scenery and we always see wildlife on the way.  Sometimes we meet new people.  When we get to Manley I can spend my time quietly in my little studio painting, and I can write.  I love our little house.  We will walk up the hill behind the house every evening.  Perhaps I’ll pick cranberries.  Perhaps I’ll make rose-hip jelly.  I’ll knit.  We will see the first snow.  There’s lots to do.  The most important thing is that it makes Jerry happy to be in Alaska.  I want him to have that pleasure as long as we are able to travel.

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What shall we call it?

Pheuctius melanocephalus

Pheuctius melanocephalus

Cyanocitta stellen

Cyanocitta stellen

In one of my former lives I was a scientist.  I was a second rate scientist, because I was too lazy to learn the math needed to be a first rate one, and too disorganized and easily bored to be sufficiently systematic about collecting data. 

But my biggest mistake was in my choice of field in graduate school.  In college, when I finally settled on a major, (having previously chosen and discarded speech, art history and political science) I majored in zoology.  These days zoology is no longer an option.  Too old fashioned. 

These days you major in biology with the emphasis on molecular biology.  There are several reasons for this.  First of all, chemistry is basic to life, so the reasoning is that biology should be a lot about chemistry.  Second, biology has suffered to some degree from the criticism that its science isn’t “hard” enough.  The social sciences get the worst of this attitude: they get sneered at by all the natural sciences and are called “soft”.  But physicists look down on chemistry and biology.  They figure they have mastered the most difficult of disciplines and are qualified to opine on any subject.  And chemists look down on biologists.  So biologists try to defend by being more chemical. 

But back to what I learned about in Zoology.  I learned a lot of stuff about animals (a category which, of course, includes humans.)  I learned about how they develop (embryology), how they are built (anatomy), how they function (physiology, cell biology), how they interact with their environment and each other (ecology, animal behavior.)  What I enjoyed the most was discovering the marvelous diversity of animal life that has evolved on earth, and how it began and changed through the ages.

In the beginning of my study of zoology I learned about animals without backbones – invertebrates.  The lectures were given by Dr. Mortensen, a spinsterish lady in her 60’s.  She was dry and stern, but smart, organized and rigorous.  In the lab we started by looking at small things through the microscope.  At first all I could see was my own eyelashes.  When I learned to manipulate the microscope it revealed a new world to me.  We were supposed to find various microscopic critters and draw them.  I loved doing that.  I was in awe of Dr. Mortensen, even though my pre-med friends all thought she was boring and complained that they would never “use” the information she taught.

During my undergraduate years I learned about jellyfish, sponges, starfish, crabs, bears, dogs, sloths, duck-billed platypuses, ostriches, spiders, rhinoceros beetles, rhinoceroses, blue jays, and I could go on for pages.  My point is, there are a lot of different kinds of critters. 

In order to study different kinds of animals we must name them and put them into some kind of ordered system.  That discipline is taxonomy.  Taxonomy is the part of biology I like the best.  It’s where you get see the big picture, how it all fits together, and how one thing arose from another, how life evolved, and we, the people, appeared on the earth.

Taxonomists give each species 2 names, the way we do our children.  They have a generic (group) name and a specific name.  In general, a species is defined as a breeding group.  There is apparently something innate in humans that makes them name things this way, that is, with 2 parts.  Anthropologists have found that most cultures studied name both people and animals with 2 names. 

In the New York Times on Tuesday this week (Aug 11) there was an article by Carol Kaesuk Yoon, a biologist who lives in Bellingham.  She has written a book, well reviewed, called Naming Nature: The Clash Between Instinct and Science.  I have ordered a copy.  She writes that there is a part of the human brain “that is devoted to the doing of taxonomy.”  Researchers have found that if this part of the brain is damaged, a region of the temporal lobe that names and classifies organisms, a person becomes incapable of recognizing living things. 

I will read the book with interest and regret that I didn’t spend my life exploring this fascinating topic.  Instead, mostly because I was following the funding, I did my graduate work in cell biology, and ended up with my second love, the microscope.  I became an electron microscopist and explored the endless complexity of the world inside the cell.

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New York! New York!

I arrived in New York, to be there during my son’s operation on his neck, last Wednesday afternoon.

I flew into grubby Kennedy International Airport.  I stood in line waiting for a cab.  “Where you wanna go?” the dispatcher shouted at me.  I gave her the address on east 46th street.  “Fifty dollars,” she barked.  Ah, yes.  I’m in New York, I thought.

I met my son and his wife at the apartment where we were staying, kindly lent to us by my cousin who was away on vacation.  We decided to go out for dinner.  There were lots of restaurants nearby, and we finally chose one that had “Indian – Latin American fusion” cuisine.  The food was fine.  I had a whole fish spiced with ginger and hot pepper.  I was hungry, having eaten nothing but airplane peanuts all day.

Steve and Michelle

Steve and Michelle

The apartment we stayed in was a penthouse, so-called (though it had no balcony) because it was on the top floor – about the 27th.  The views were panoramic.

Penthouse view

Penthouse view

Tall buildings

Tall buildings

We had a full day in New York before my son’s operation.  We walked the streets and planned the next day and shopped for dinner which I was to cook. 

I was astonished at how many nail salons there were.  I think about one in every block.  New Yorkers must spend a lot of time and money on their finger nails.  There were lots of flower stands and fruit stands.

Sidewalk flowers

Sidewalk flowers

 
 

Sidewalk fruit

Sidewalk fruit

Michelle and I stopped for a drink at a sidewalk café. It was a treat just to watch the variety of people passing.       

There were lots of babies in strollers and carriages.  Many of them were pushed by nannies.  Many were pushed by daddies.  I saw only a few stroller pushers who could be suspected of being mommies.  How things change.  When I was young a man would be laughed at for pushing a baby stroller in the daytime when he should be at work.  We saw quite a few twins in carriages in the short time we sat there.  “Must be something in the water,” Michelle said.

The number of dogs on the streets was a wonder too.  And they all looked so squeaky clean and groomed.  I thought there should be as many dog groomers as nail salons.

All sizes and shapes

All sizes and shapes

There were old people too out walking in the sunshine; old men alone and old women with companions and helpers. 

Oh, and the young women!  On a warm day there was so much to be seen.  Gowns, some long, some so short as to hardly rate the name of gown, clung to the curves, barely covered the bosom and were held up with the thinnest wisps of straps.  Some were strapless.  Jerry would have loved it, though he claims to dislike all cities.

We didn’t know until Thursday afternoon at what time the next day Steve’s operation would take place, and that made him tense all day.  The operation has significant risks: risks to life, and risks to mental function, because the area of the surgery is full of major blood vessels and nerves to the brain.  He was supposed to call at 3 o’clock to find out the time. It took three calls but at last he was told to appear at 10:30 the next morning. 

He had expected to be discharged the same day as the operation, but discovered that the admissions people mistakenly thought it was to be a shoulder operation, not a neck one.  When the doctor came into the prep room to write his initials on the left side of Steve’s neck with ball point pen – so everyone was clear about which side was to be fixed, he said Steve would have to stay in the hospital overnight.  Steve finally walked to the operating room, wheeling his IV’s beside him, at about 1 o’clock.

Michelle and I, both nervous as cats, went to get some lunch in the hospital cafeteria.  We shared a table with a nice nurse who knew Steve’s surgeon well and she told us that he is the team doctor to the New York Giants.  The time seemed to drag, and I kept thinking of the time I spent sitting in a waiting room when he was 8 years old and was having his ruptured spleen removed.

We had been told that the operation would take about an hour and a half, but it was nearly 4 o’clock when the doctor came out to see us.  He explained that the operation had gone well, and drew a little picture of how he had installed the ligament of a cadaver to tie up the dislocated collar bone.  Then he said, “I’ll need to see him for a follow-up in about 2 weeks.”

I said, “But how can they, they live in Charleston, South Carolina?”

He gave me a long look and said, “People come from all over the world to see me.”

By 5 o’clock they had Steve in a bed in the hospital.  Michelle and I stayed with him until visiting hours were over at 8.

The next day his neck was swollen, and it soon was clear that he would not go home that day.  The swelling had to go down first.  We came and went most of the day, and in the afternoon set out to get him some non-hospital food, specifically, some sushi.  And to get some additional undershorts that he wanted.  For that we stopped at Banana Republic, and I was astonished to see elegant ladies with elegant dogs on leashes right in the store trying on clothes.

Michelle’s cell phone rang.  It was Steve.  He said we were not to worry, but something had been seen on an x-ray taken after the operation (air where it should not be) and they wanted to do another x-ray and an MRI.  When we got back to the hospital he was back from x-ray, looked really upset, and couldn’t eat the sushi.  By 7:30 there still was no news from radiology.  Since he is a doctor himself, he understood well all the unpleasant possibilities, and was scared.  But it was the weekend, and things were moving slowly.  Finally he called the nurse and said, “I want to see the resident, NOW.”

Then we got the news that the air seen on x-ray had not been in a region of vital blood vessels, but in overlying tissues.  We all sighed with relief.  By this time the swelling was down, and he was to be discharged the next day.  I said goodbye, since my plane left early Sunday morning.

On the road to recovery

On the road to recovery

 

Sunday was Jerry’s and my third wedding anniversary.  I was so glad to see him.  We still hold hands across the table in restaurants.  It has been a good 3 years.

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Since I came home

Here are two things that made me happy since I came home.  I saw the frog while I was watering.  The baby to come will be my first great grandchild.

Garden Frog

Garden Frog

Baby to come

Baby to come

A lot has happened since I came home.

My third husband, Hugh, died in Atlanta.  He would have been 80 on his next birthday. He was having dinner with his girlfriend at his apartment.  They had planned to go out, but he wasn’t feeling well, so she got take-out food.  They had just finished their appetizer when he had a coughing fit, collapsed and apparently suffered a stroke.  I heard about this from his first wife, who was later called to the hospital.  I was married to Hugh for 20 years and we were still friends.  He was a lawyer, a good and honest man; loving to me and to his sons (he had four).  His problem was a life-long struggle with alcohol. I find his sudden absence from the world difficult to think about.

My second daughter, Clare, who is presently in Atlanta, tells me her fiancé has swine flu, complicated by pneumonia.  He has been very sick, but not bad enough to be hospitalized.  Soon they are both going off to Afghanistan to work for an NGO.  It’s a perilous world.   

Since coming home I have played Mah Jongg with friends.  We have an island game going now.  My new playmates learned the game quickly, and there is enthusiasm for it.  The first time we played in my house, next time in the wine tasting studio up the street.  The others played while I was in England, and last week we played at Dianne and Mike’s place in their “tower,” a little room they have recently built as the only second story to their house.  The room serves as a game room and a guest room for their grandchildren.  It has a marvelous view of both sides of the island.  To the east is Hale’s Passage, to the west is Legoe Bay.

Jerry and I walk every night after dinner with the poodles.  We do a circuit, down to Hale’s passage, up past the firehouse, turn to overlook Legoe Bay and then home.  We pass great beauty and lots of grazing animals.  On Friday there was a cow (actually a black steer), loose on the road.  We tried to pass by on the other side of the road, but the steer took an unfriendly interest in the poodles.  The poodles barked.  Jerry stomped at the steer and shooed it back, but for a while it continued to lunge at us.  I walked quickly down to Harmony’s, thinking it was theirs.  They said it had been 5 years since their cattle were in that field, and it belonged to Grangers.  I asked if they would call Grangers. 

As we rounded the corner we saw 4 Grangers, including Earl who is almost 90, swoop down on the steer.  John Granger’s trotter ponies dashed across the field to watch, and about 15 of the llamas stood at rapt attention to see the spectacle of 3 female humans and an old man herding the young black steer back to his home pasture.  There was a lot of hand clapping and shouting, and the animal finally obeyed its masters and joined the other cattle which were calmly munching grass.

On Saturday I went to the island market and I bought some beets and got a free zucchini because it had grown too large.  I talked to friends.  Naomi was selling the jewelry she makes from her big bead collection.  Naomi’s son died this year, and she has had a difficult time.  But she visited a daughter and grandchildren in California and that was a help.  I listened to Jill playing her violin with two other musicians; one had a guitar, the other a banjo.  They were playing soft country music and it sounded lovely.  I saw Lis, whose daughter, Olivia, just graduated from Smith College.  Olivia has a table at the market where she sells delicious baked pastries and cakes that she makes herself.  She always sells out within a half hour of the market opening, well before the county health inspector can come around to shut her down for not having an approved kitchen. By the time I got to the market the table was empty.  I saw Chuck, the island organic farmer, who isn’t farming this year because he has multiple myeloma.  He has been having chemotherapy, and I almost didn’t recognize him without his beard.  He is doing well, though, and has only one more treatment to go.

On Saturday afternoon Jerry and I walked over to wine tasting.  The wines were good as usual and there was lots of lively conversation.  Richard, the host, was holding forth about the wines.  He really talks the talk. He is an educator at heart, and when I said I couldn’t tell the difference between the first two wines we tasted, (both light white wines, cool and refreshing,) he gave me a little of each at the same time.  By sipping first one and then the other I found I learned something and could detect a slight variation.

On Sunday my grandson James and his wife Maria came to get the small baby bed I brought back from England with me.  Next month their baby, Julian, will be born, and he will sleep in that bed which had been his father’s, it seems like yesterday. 

My friend and house sitter Linda came as well.  At dinner Linda told us all about the perfidy of her erstwhile boyfriend.  Apparently he had hundreds of other women and he milked them all, Linda included, for money and possessions.  Linda had gone to the RV he was living in, provided by her father, to reclaim some of her possessions.  He had threatened to call the police.  I called my lawyer daughter for some legal advice.

The weather was beautiful, and I cooked the entire dinner on the grill.  We had steak, the large free zuccini and roasted vegetables (potatoes, beets, carrots, and onions.)  I parboiled the carrots and beets, then tossed all the veggies in chopped garlic, halapenio and olive oil and put them on the grill in foil.  I sliced the zuccini and cooked it on the grill in foil as well.  A salad went with all that.  It was good.

Tomorrow I am off again.  This time to New York, but only for 4 days.  My oldest son, Steve is to have an operation there.  Last fall he had an accident on his bicycle.  His collar bone was dislocated so that it is sticking into his neck.  He has not been able to find a surgeon willing to correct it until now.  He lives in Charleston, and no surgeon there would do it.  The neck is a tricky place to operate because there are so many blood vessels and nerves in it.  The surgeon in New York who will do the operation is the world’s expert on this surgery.  I want to be there. 

I’ll be back with you all next week.

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Inside the narrow boat

Several people have asked to see pictures of the inside of the Duchess’ boat.  I only have a couple and they don’t do justice to its cosy comfort, but here they are.  The first was taken on Boxing Day 2 years ago.  The people in the picture are 3 of my grandchildren.  James, standing, lives in the States.  Since that photo he has married and will soon be the father of a baby boy.  Elizabeth has on earmuffs (it was chilly).  Since that photo she has spent more than a year in Africa working with disabled orphans.  Tom is seated.  Since the photo he has finished Cambridge and will go to drama school in the fall.

Inside the narrow boat

Inside the narrow boat

 

The second picture I took on my recent trip.  It is looking in the opposite direction from the photo above.

Looking toward the engine

Looking toward the engine

 

Here are two pictures of the river and the view from the boat.

Swan on the river

Swan on the river

the river from the boat

the river from the boat

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Across the ocean and back again

I am home again.  I flew into Vancouver on Saturday from London. 

My trip was a good one.  I vacillated a long time about whether to go or not, and I am glad I went.

The flights are always hard.  On the way to London I sat next to an elderly Muslim woman who was being taken by her niece to Jordan to live with her son.  Because of a stroke last year, she had difficulty coping with the seats and some internal need caused her to lean in my direction.  Her niece and I gently tried to reorient her, but she continued to flop over the arm rest and was more or less in my lap for the entire trip. 

As I knew we would, for the first couple of days my daughter and I talked and talked.  We talked about family, friends, politics, swine flu, our blogs, our gardens, our lives.  We ate some non-fattening food and drank quite a lot of red wine.

I came to England to help her move out of the house she has lived in for 25 years, and I came, as well, to say goodbye to the house and the village I have been visiting for that long.  

We started working on emptying the garden shed.  We hauled out flower pots, rusty tools, golf clubs, large plastic water guns, and other plastic toy parts.  My daughter thought her next door neighbor might like to have the rabbit hutch, once occupied by a pet ferret.  The neighbor, Reggie, keeps a cat shelter but also has rabbits, chickens, ducks and guinea pigs.  She was delighted to accept the hutch.  We asked how many cats she has now.  She said about 30, and she is accepting no more.  At one time, when her husband was still alive, they had 80.  She says the last 30 will get old with her.

The cats are a problem for my daughter.  When she had Fluffy , the poodle, he kept her garden clear of cats.  Now Fluffy lives with me, and cats from next door sleep in flower pots, on benches and tables and make use of the flower beds so that gardening can be risky.

After a while we took a trip to the tip (dump) with a load of stuff from the shed.  I know the tip well, from many past visits.  It is well run, with things sorted by users into garden waste, land fill, scrap metal, electrical, and usable items.  This will be my last visit, so I waved goodbye to the tip. 

off to the tip

off to the tip

One day I went up to London to see Natalie of Blaugustine.  That was a real adventure.  I traveled by bus, starting at 7 in the morning from the village.  I took the bus to Oxford, then caught a bus for London, then took the tube to Natalie’s.  By myself.  I got to Natalie’s at 11 AM.

I always find public transportation a challenge.  I am scared of getting lost and missing connections, of not knowing which train to catch, or what to do with tube tickets and how to deal with machines that dispense tickets and let you in and out of tube stops. 

This time I am pleased to say I did it all correctly. 

Natalie is impressive.  Her flat is full of art, all by her or her mother, who took up painting and sculpture at 90.  Natalie’s work is colorful, quirky, funny and philosophical.  I loved it.  We had a coffee and a chat about our lives, and then I saw her studio and workroom, one for printmaking, one where she writes her blog.  She showed me some of the books she has created in the past.  Artist’s books are treasures.  Seeing Natalie’s books and prints inspired me to get to work once again.

workroom

workroom

 Next we went for lunch at a great pub across the street from her flat.  My granddaughter, Elizabeth, works nearby, and she joined us.  We started with wine, olives, and lovely bread to dip in olive oil. Elizabeth is a life-long vegetarian, and she and Natalie had courgette (zucchini) tarts with salad.  I had lamb kidneys on toast.  Most Americans would never touch a kidney, but since my mother was English (New Zealand) I have been accustomed to eating kidneys since I was a child.  The food at that pub was all beautifully done.Natalie and Elizabeth

By 3 in the afternoon I had to start back for the village.  I got to Victoria Station and began to hunt for the bus to Oxford.  I walked aimlessly for a while, and decided to head for the bus station.  Suddenly I saw a bus that said Oxford, and luckily it was the right bus (there are 2 different companies).  So I arrived safely back at the village at about 7:30.

When my daughter moves out of her house her only home will be her boat.  It is a narrow boat, moored on a river.  It is 60 feet long and about 8 feet wide, and is an elegant and comfortable, but tiny, home. 

narrow boat

narrow boat

We delivered a few things to the boat on our way to a shopping session in Oxford.  There is a shop there where one can buy T shirts for about $3.50.  I bought 3. 

My daughter and I worked in her garden, as I have done with her over the years.  After a couple of days and a trip to the garden center (the garden center is full of temptations) it looked much tidier and had added color.

For recreation we shopped for yarn to knit tiny garments for the new baby – her first grandchild, my first great-grandchild.  That baby boy will be born in September. 
 
My three grandchildren who live in England came out to the village a couple of times.  They have busy lives, Tom and Catherine in Oxford and Liz in London, and it was good of them to find time for their grandmother.  We had two family dinners, and lots of conversation.

Tom (22) is going to drama school in October.  We had a long discussion of accents and inflections, and he demonstrated some dialects he does well.  Oddly, he isn’t so good at the American accent, even though he has heard it since birth.  But he says he will learn it in drama school.

We all agreed that the rising inflection is annoying.

in the kitchen

in the kitchen

One evening we went to the movies with Catherine and her father (my daughter’s ex).  The movie was one of the Harry Potters.  I am not a fan of Harry Potter, but it was fun to go with Catherine and the popcorn was plentiful and good. After the movie we had a glass of wine in the Eagle and Child, the pub where Tom is presently working as manager (before drama school.)  Tom is a licensed publican, a good thing, I think, for a man who would be an actor.  The pub he manages is the one where J. R. R. Tolkien and C. S. Lewis used to spend time in conversation – in the Rabbit Room.

Tom the Publican

Tom the Publican

One evening we had dinner at the house of my daughter’s old friend, Marit, with whom she ran the London marathon 6 years ago.  Marit is originally Norwegian, but has been British for many years and has British children and grandchildren.  We sipped champagne and ate smoked salmon appetizers on tiny pancakes, then had roast chicken with stuffing.  We talked about love affairs gone wrong and laughed (ruefully) at men. 

Marit’s style is to say shocking but funny things; underneath she is generous and kind.  I hope the Duchess will post about Marit and the egg man.  I don’t think I could do the story justice.  In the picture below Marit is holding a box of eggs.

Marit

Marit

That was my trip.  I came home to a loving husband, glad to see me.  The flowers and tomatoes looked well cared for.  The dogs were ecstatic and the cat, who had gone missing for 6 days, came back.

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Saying Goodbye

The village

The village

I am going to England.

I am going to see my beautiful daughter and 3 of her beautiful children.

I am going to help my daughter move out of the house she has lived in for 25 years.  We will clean and sort and pack.  She will make painful decisions about what things to eliminate from her life.

I first came to that house a couple of months after she moved in.  I was there for the first visit of the village vicar.  I saw my son-in-law install carpet.  My now grown-up granddaughter was a nursing infant.  

Over the years I have watched the house and the village change.  The kitchen has been redone, the dining room reconfigured, windows replaced, heating system modernized, bathrooms added.  The house next door used to be the village shop and post office.  Now it is a private home and the village has no shop and no post office.  A new street has been added with pleasant modern houses that blend well with the thatched roofs and rose covered stone walls.  People I knew and liked in the village have died and children have grown up.  But much remains the same.  This is most likely the last time I will see it.

I have helped with many changes to the garden, from planting flower beds to creating a rock garden and laying a walk. I have weeded, planted, pruned and admired as trees, shrubs and flowers grew.  My daughter and I have shopped at the Garden Center for plants, lanterns, candles, and a chiminea for evening warmth.  We have taken car loads of leaves, weeds and clippings to the tip.  There are so many memories, and I will say goodbye.

My daughter and I will talk a lot.  We will drink wine together.  She will help me shed a few pounds.  She is entirely disciplined about eating.  A little less so about wine, but then, we drink red, and it makes you live longer.  I’m sticking to that position. 

I will leave my dogs, my cat, my tomatoes and my flowers in Jerry’s care.  I know he will watch over them diligently.  He will keep the animals’ routines conscientiously and do the watering right.  Every morning when I wake up I think about how lucky I am.  In my old age I have married a man who is always sweet, and extra nice to me when I am going away because he knows he will miss me.  And he will be nice to me when I get home because he will be glad to see me.  

I am looking forward to seeing that pretty house and village one last time.  I will be sad to let it recede into the past.  And then I will be happy to greet my husband and my dogs and my cat and my tomatoes and flowers.  

I am a lucky woman.

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An insurance company is an insurance company is an insurance company

This blog is primarily a personal one.  I don’t usually write about political events or issues.  That is not because I am not interested in politics and world events, but rather because I don’t feel that I can add much to the excellent discussions of blogs like Darlene’s Hodge-podge and Time Goes By. 

 

I am making an exception here, partly because I do have something personal to add to the topic of health care reform.

 

I live in the Pacific Northwest, near the city of Bellingham, which is about 90 miles north of Seattle.  Many people in this area are insured by a company called Group Health.  My husband Jerry insured his late wife, Susy, with Group Health.  He himself had Medicare, but she was too young.

 

Group Health is being held up as an example of a model for a “cooperative” health care plan that would be a “compromise” solution to the Republicans’ objection to a government health plan.  There is an article in today’s New York Times discussing Group Health.  Toward the end of the article it states that “Technically, Group Health was misnamed. . . . . Structured as a not-for-profit corporation, its revenues (2.6 billion last year) are reinvested rather than redistributed among members.  But it is governed like a cooperative – and calls itself one – because its board consists of and is elected by members.”  In fact, according to the article, only seven-tenths of 1 percent of enrollees voted in the last board election.

 

In fact, Group Health is an insurance company.  Apparently its fees are slightly lower than other insurance companies, supposedly because its records are computerized and its doctors are paid a salary (not fee for service).  Salaries are based on “performance.”  The article does not say who evaluates performance, or what criteria are used in the evaluation.  But I’d be willing to bet my bottom dollar that keeping cost down is a biggie!

 

At Group Health, according to the Times article, patients are assigned a team of primary care practitioners who are responsible for their health.  Notice that they are assigned practitioners.  What that means is that you don’t choose your own doctor, and you don’t even choose whether or not you see a doctor.  You may see a nurse, and you don’t have a say in which it is. 

 

Suppose you were a doctor working for Group Health and your salary was based on your performance.  Your performance would be measured by the administrators running the insurance company (Group Health).  These administrators would be very interested in keeping costs down, and probably secondarily, in keeping patients healthy (or perhaps in keeping healthy patients).  You would be disinclined to order tests for patients, especially expensive tests.  You would prefer not to treat the really sick ones.

 

The Times article states further: “Medical practices, and insurance coverage decisions, are driven by the company’s own research into which drugs and procedures are most effective.” 

 

Don’t let them fool you.  It’s an insurance company, pure and simple.

 

Here’s what happened to Jerry’s wife.  Some years after he took out the insurance she discovered that she had metastasized breast cancer, the same thing Elizabeth Edwards has.  It would eventually kill her, but there were treatments which could significantly prolong her life.  She was given chemotherapy and the cancer went into remission.  The tumors were not gone, but they were no longer growing.  After another year they came back.  Jerry got a letter from Group Health saying they would no longer cover Susy’s cancer.  He read the policy, which had been sold to him by an insurance broker (because Group Health is an insurance company) and it had a lot of language in it that was difficult to understand, but which did seem to indicate that the insurance company could terminate coverage under various conditions.

 

Is anyone surprised by this story?  Isn’t this standard insurance company practice?  Don’t get really sick because the doctors will get paid less and the insurance company will get less money.

 

Jerry made a fuss.  The original broker got involved.  (“This is outrageous!” is what he said to Jerry.)  Eventually he got coverage reinstated, and Susy lived another 5 years. 

 

Jerry and I both have Medicare.  He wouldn’t be paid to have Group Health.  Medicare isn’t perfect, but it is the best health insurance I ever had.  We supplement it with a medigap policy.  That is not cheap, but it allows us to choose our own doctor and to decide when to go.  We can see a specialist when we need to, and the insurance company has nothing to do with the decision.  We decide, with the recommendation of our doctor, which specialists to see.

President Obama said that if we like the insurance we have we can keep it.  I sure hope he keeps that promise, because I really don’t want to be forced into something like Group Health.      

 

 

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